Listening With My Heart...

... is the name of one of the books I ordered for my 'library'.  It came in the mail today.  I can't wait to read it!  It's about a deaf girl who was Miss America 1995.  She talks about her faith in God, her spirit of determination, and her hard work to never give into voices of discouragement despite her challenges.  Sounds like the kind of read I need!


I have much support from friends and friends of friends.  Most people have told me that they think we're doing a great thing.  Some family members are concerned that this is a burden too heavy to bear.  I am discouraged by negative words.  I am.  I can't help it.  Thank you Lord that the support outweighs the negative.  I just think maybe they're scared for us and our kids, and they can't help but react that way.  I just know that when they see him they will love him.  How could any human being not?  I know God wouldn't give me anything I couldn't bear.  We all face hardships and burdens.  But this is a life!  A beating heart.... living, breathing, thriving little body that needs nuturing.  Needs touch.  Needs a 'momma'.  And I want to be that momma!  Thank you God that Ron wants to be his daddy!  And thank you God that my girls have huge hearts that hold enough love to WANT another brother.  Thank you that they already say, "My brother Chen Chen". 


I found Alex yesterday laying in my bed practicing sign.  She wants her brother home...Now THAT'S me listening with my heart...