Getting SO Excited!

I am getting SO excited.  More and more of you are bringing me encouraging words!  I love it!  It really helps us focus on bringing him home instead of all of the red tape.  Prayers are so important to us!  Thank you!!  And we LOVE your feedback!


Before I go any further, I want to thank all of you who have donated without my knowledge!  I can only check our fund every two weeks or so please know that if you did donate, I will find you and personally thank you!!  You know who you are!  It's hard for us to ask for help...as I said before, it is very humbling...but necessary nonetheless.  I just keep trying to remember that this is for a little life that needs a family to love him, to help him unlock his potential, and work with him to be the man God intended him to be.  


Sometimes I wonder what he'll be like.  I know God has a plan for him, as He does ALL of us, but I think about who this little guy will become.  He lives in a world of constant silence.  I think about him searching the eyes of his caregivers every day for assurance, for love, for acceptance.  I wonder if he holds his arms up to them to be held... or if he is used to touch at all.  Here, in my family, I still hold Ava and Nick-even CARRY them.  I'd hold Alex if I could (although she'd roll her eyes at that, I know she'd secretly enjoy it).  I wonder if the kids around him even notice him, or share their toys with him.  I was talking to Alex this morning about these very thoughts.  I said "Alex, what if he doesn't like to be held, or touched...or kissed?  What will we do?"  She said " Mom, don't worry, we'll change that!" And you know what?  She is so excited about bringing him home that she agreed to share a room with Ava so the boys could have a bedroom to share!  At 13, that's HUGE!  Even Nick (sometimes) talks about the Thomas the Train room he will share with Chen Chen...BUT, quite frankly, that's on a GOOD day...


I saw my Grandmother today.  She came to the salon where I work.  I was worried about what she'd think about all of this.  I hadn't talked to her personally about it, only through e-mail.  I didn't have time to talk to her when she saw me but she handed me a folded up amount of money and said " Put this toward your adoption."  I didn't know how much it was, and I didn't care.  What I DO know is that I was SO worried about her opinion, and after finally discussing it with her, I found out she was completely supportive!  I shouldn't be surprised because I prayed about that too!!!


Oh, I can't wait to get him!