Well, everything is off to the required embassy's--one in DC and one in NY! Whew! I hope to receive everything back by next week. As soon as I get them, off to my case manager and China they go! I can't wait to be done with that part! We really have come a lot closer.
So for now I am continuing my reading and following blogs by some other awesome adoptive moms while they are in China! It's fun seeing there progress and pictures that they post.
Nicholas is begging me everyday for Jace to come home!!! I love that!
A high school friend of Ron's named Paula sent us a donation to help bring him home. Thanks, Paula! We appreciate your generosity and the Lord's prompting!
I'll keep ya posted!
Jace
Friday, January 22, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
USICS APPROVAL!!!
Can you believe it???? I got the approval?? And what is so cool is, that I had ordered something online that had 'mother' written in Chinese ( I copied off my buddy Rebekah who was gifted one in Amharic) and it arrived at the same time! Thank you, GOD!!!
He is so good to me--and I am so undeserving! You may read what I write and think I am doing such a good thing, but what you don't see is the real me. The me that is unrefined. Sure, I can write about my feelings and how excited I am. Or the books I read or the plans I have for our future with Jace. But I never share the bitterness I harbor day-to-day, or the way I talked sharply to my kids--or even to my husband. And then there's the 'potty mouth' I tend to have when I am angry! I never share the 'nasty' thoughts I have about something--or even some'one'. God sees passed my sin-the very sin He knew I'd commit, despite my love for Him. To know He loves me no matter what-- THAT is unthinkable to me. Incomprehensible. I ask myself why? Why would God choose me for Jace's mom? Why would He trust me? I am certainly NOT the most patient person! Ask my kids, they will tell you! On second thought, better not ask my kids, because they WILL tell you...
My point is, I pray over EVERYTHING I do for this adoption and I trust Him to bring it to completion. I tell myself 'if something doesn't happen the way I want it to, too bad! God is in control'. Why should God make this happen for me? Why should He answer all my prayers when I am not giving Him anything in return? Especially when I am breaking promises to Him, or I am willfully sinning against Him?
This is what comes to my mind--Because He has started a work within me. A work that only He can begin and bring to fruition. This adoption wasn't MY idea. It wasn't Ron's idea..it was God's idea! Only God can refine me. Only God can bring patience. Only God can bring LOVE. I love Jace--I have NEVER met this little boy. What could possibly make me love him like that? It is a love that only God brings to Jace through me. Thank you, GOD!!!
He is so good to me--and I am so undeserving! You may read what I write and think I am doing such a good thing, but what you don't see is the real me. The me that is unrefined. Sure, I can write about my feelings and how excited I am. Or the books I read or the plans I have for our future with Jace. But I never share the bitterness I harbor day-to-day, or the way I talked sharply to my kids--or even to my husband. And then there's the 'potty mouth' I tend to have when I am angry! I never share the 'nasty' thoughts I have about something--or even some'one'. God sees passed my sin-the very sin He knew I'd commit, despite my love for Him. To know He loves me no matter what-- THAT is unthinkable to me. Incomprehensible. I ask myself why? Why would God choose me for Jace's mom? Why would He trust me? I am certainly NOT the most patient person! Ask my kids, they will tell you! On second thought, better not ask my kids, because they WILL tell you...
My point is, I pray over EVERYTHING I do for this adoption and I trust Him to bring it to completion. I tell myself 'if something doesn't happen the way I want it to, too bad! God is in control'. Why should God make this happen for me? Why should He answer all my prayers when I am not giving Him anything in return? Especially when I am breaking promises to Him, or I am willfully sinning against Him?
This is what comes to my mind--Because He has started a work within me. A work that only He can begin and bring to fruition. This adoption wasn't MY idea. It wasn't Ron's idea..it was God's idea! Only God can refine me. Only God can bring patience. Only God can bring LOVE. I love Jace--I have NEVER met this little boy. What could possibly make me love him like that? It is a love that only God brings to Jace through me. Thank you, GOD!!!
Friday, January 15, 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JACE!!!!!!!!!
Today is my youngest baby boy's birthday. Today, Jace turns three! Today, he waits in China for his family to take him home. Today, my heart aches to hold him, to kiss his cheek and tell him that 'today is the day we celebrate your very being'! Today is the day I wish I was baking his birthday cake and helping him blow out the candles...
Still no word on USCIS. I am hoping to get that next week at the latest! I have been praying over that approval everyday! I know that God's timing is perfect, but it is definitely not easy...smile. I am also a little concerned about getting a travel date from China because the Chinese New Year begins in February for two weeks. If their new year is anything like our 'deer season' I am in trouble (haha). There are also a few weeks throughout the next coming months that CWA recommends not traveling for whatever reason I am not sure. I just hope that doesn't delay us longer. Once again, God knows that but it is still bothering me.
I wonder how he spent his day. It is bedtime for him as I am only beginning this blog entry. I wonder if his caregivers recognized his special day. I like to think so. I try to imagine his little face lighting up as he sees his birthday cake and watches in silence as others celebrate with him. I wonder if he even knows what a birthday is? But he will very soon! Very soon he will be wondering lots of things! I can't wait to see through his eyes what he wonders. What he discovers. What he likes and doesn't like. Soon, very soon, he will be home!!
Today I blow you a kiss, Birthday Boy. Today I thank God for saving you for me...
Still no word on USCIS. I am hoping to get that next week at the latest! I have been praying over that approval everyday! I know that God's timing is perfect, but it is definitely not easy...smile. I am also a little concerned about getting a travel date from China because the Chinese New Year begins in February for two weeks. If their new year is anything like our 'deer season' I am in trouble (haha). There are also a few weeks throughout the next coming months that CWA recommends not traveling for whatever reason I am not sure. I just hope that doesn't delay us longer. Once again, God knows that but it is still bothering me.
I wonder how he spent his day. It is bedtime for him as I am only beginning this blog entry. I wonder if his caregivers recognized his special day. I like to think so. I try to imagine his little face lighting up as he sees his birthday cake and watches in silence as others celebrate with him. I wonder if he even knows what a birthday is? But he will very soon! Very soon he will be wondering lots of things! I can't wait to see through his eyes what he wonders. What he discovers. What he likes and doesn't like. Soon, very soon, he will be home!!
Today I blow you a kiss, Birthday Boy. Today I thank God for saving you for me...
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